Lupus, Stroke, and Cancer killed me- How I came back to Life
So let's try this again- a while back I decided to start a blog. It didn't work out but I had something to say- so here it is... (somewhere in Facebook heaven)
"The last few days have been bad, very bad. I have #Lupus. I have had #Lupus since I was 12 years old. Some days I cry, some days I ask why?, some days I would rather die than feel the pain of #Lupus. Then I remember that MY GOD, would never ever, ever, ever put more on me then I could take. He may not come when I want him, but I know he will always show up right on time. So what if I don’t get a job because I have #Lupus.
So what if I can’t be skinny because I have #Lupus. So what if I have to take pills every morning to stay alive because I have #Lupus. So what if I can’t wear cute heals all the time because I have have #Lupus. So what if I can’t get out of bed every morning because I have #Lupus. So what if one day I feel great and the next day I can barely stand and people looking from the outside looking in don’t understand because I have #Lupus. I am glad that MY GOD surrounded me with people that love and care about me. No matter how dark my days may be, I fight for them. No matter how may times I want to give up, I fight for them. No matter how the devil tries to disguise himself to to make me let go and give in… I will fight. I thank GOD for the man that he put in my life because the last few days have been hard. He has been there when it got dark and I wanted it to end. He is strong, he is my best friend, he is my boyfriend. Thank You Boyzie. Now I will fight this #Lupus and continue to LIVE!“
When I get a Lupus flare I just feel so helpless. It almost seems like I want to just give up and die sometimes. Yet when you come out of its hard to believe you were ever in that place. Now I am here. I am not here to sugar coat anything. I am here to tell it like it is. "The way I say it. As I see it. Through my eyes. While living with Lupus.”
Since this time in my life I have been faced with so many other obstacles. Cancer and stroke both knocked at the front door this far in my 27 year old life. These times were very hard for me. After overcoming all of these obstacles I decided to return to my original idea of becoming a Youtuber and blogger. I have so many thoughts, ideas and beliefs that I cannot wait to share with you. Join me as I celebrate life and what it has to offer!
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